08 February 2010
07 February 2010
Given the opportunity
Odd title I know but work with me on this.
I have wanted to be an educator for as long as I know, I have made no secret of this. But I am scared shitless of becoming one. Ask any educator out there, the minute you put yourself in the shoes of someones teacher you can basically control the lives. How much homework, the grade they receive, the assignments they complete you have every power over them. With this power comes 30+ parents telling what you are doing wrong and how they want you to change to meet their child's needs.
What scares me is the fact that if I piss off the wrong parent, my dream of being an educator can be over. I know it seem kind of melodramatic, but if I can control everything about their child's life, they feel that they can in turn control every part of my life, in the classroom or not.
I am a proud gay man, I am happily partnered but I am not out at work. And honestly I do not think I ever will be. Solely because I fear fueling the fire of hatred and anger that can take away my dream. So given the opportunity, I will not deny who I am. If someone asks I will tell, but I will not do anything that will put my dream in jeopardy. Even in a big city I have to deny who I am, or at least not be as open about it.
(You may be saying to yourself, this came out of left field. But I watched Milk tonight and it got me thinking, and angry. Angry because in 30+ years, NOTHING HAS CHANGED.)
Okay back to your regularly scheduled half naked mens tomorrow.
I have wanted to be an educator for as long as I know, I have made no secret of this. But I am scared shitless of becoming one. Ask any educator out there, the minute you put yourself in the shoes of someones teacher you can basically control the lives. How much homework, the grade they receive, the assignments they complete you have every power over them. With this power comes 30+ parents telling what you are doing wrong and how they want you to change to meet their child's needs.
What scares me is the fact that if I piss off the wrong parent, my dream of being an educator can be over. I know it seem kind of melodramatic, but if I can control everything about their child's life, they feel that they can in turn control every part of my life, in the classroom or not.
I am a proud gay man, I am happily partnered but I am not out at work. And honestly I do not think I ever will be. Solely because I fear fueling the fire of hatred and anger that can take away my dream. So given the opportunity, I will not deny who I am. If someone asks I will tell, but I will not do anything that will put my dream in jeopardy. Even in a big city I have to deny who I am, or at least not be as open about it.
(You may be saying to yourself, this came out of left field. But I watched Milk tonight and it got me thinking, and angry. Angry because in 30+ years, NOTHING HAS CHANGED.)
Okay back to your regularly scheduled half naked mens tomorrow.
03 February 2010
JustBecause will Return Monday, February 8th!
I have been sicker then a dog and honestly haven't had the energy to post new hot steamy mens!
To tide you over search the archives and enjoy a funny explosm.net cartoon...
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
To tide you over search the archives and enjoy a funny explosm.net cartoon...
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
31 January 2010
NSFW JustBecause XRATED Sunday
If you read my blog, you know i am a sucker for a man in a robe. Especially if her is hairy. Twofer Yum!
This guy is hot. love the little smirk.
This guy is hot. love the little smirk.
30 January 2010
29 January 2010
28 January 2010
27 January 2010
School drama aka Reluctantly a Phoenix part Deux
Authors Note: This can be seen as a continuation of my post Reluctantly a Phoenix from last August.
You may ask, what's the drama queen upset about now... the complete and total lack of communication at the University of Phoenix.
Last week, I started one of my last 10 classes, Mathematics Methods. I had heard some negative things about the teacher. I was worried that the teacher would put a bad taste in my mouth about teaching math. I guess you can call me sick but I LOVE MATH. It is just so fun to teach and to learn. After attending the the first class and speaking with a co-worker, my mind was changed.
So I had a question that I needed the teacher to answer and posted it to the online forum. I waited the requisite 24 hours and still had not heard anything. Kinda perturbed, I talked to a classmate who actually emailed the teacher. The teacher advised her that she will no longer be the teacher.
Okay fine, she gave the other student the name of the new teacher and I got everything resolved. That's right folks, I got all the classes questions answered, posted it to the classroom forum, and made sure that we (the students) were prepared for class. To make matters worse, my "graduation team" was clueless to this even happening!
So now I must answer those of you who say, they are a corporation, of course they do not care. I would agree with you, if they did not boast and pride themselves on the "wonderful student experience..." It goes beyond just a corporation, they control the lives of so many countless individuals.
I am an educator at heart... I truly believe that to be an educator you have to be passionate about learning and about the institution of learning. Educators, and especially the institutions they represent, have an responsibility to help foster the passion of learning within every student. This includes being open, honest and communicative with the student.
You may ask, what's the drama queen upset about now... the complete and total lack of communication at the University of Phoenix.
Last week, I started one of my last 10 classes, Mathematics Methods. I had heard some negative things about the teacher. I was worried that the teacher would put a bad taste in my mouth about teaching math. I guess you can call me sick but I LOVE MATH. It is just so fun to teach and to learn. After attending the the first class and speaking with a co-worker, my mind was changed.
So I had a question that I needed the teacher to answer and posted it to the online forum. I waited the requisite 24 hours and still had not heard anything. Kinda perturbed, I talked to a classmate who actually emailed the teacher. The teacher advised her that she will no longer be the teacher.
Okay fine, she gave the other student the name of the new teacher and I got everything resolved. That's right folks, I got all the classes questions answered, posted it to the classroom forum, and made sure that we (the students) were prepared for class. To make matters worse, my "graduation team" was clueless to this even happening!
I HAD TO DO ALL THE WORK THAT THE "SUPPOSED SUPPORT SYSTEM" THE UNIVERSITY OF PHOENIX BRAGS ABOUT SHOULD HAVE BEEN DOING!
Okay so most of you who know me would wonder why i wasnt behind bars for blowing up and wanting to hurt someone... You know what, at this point I really don't care. I have 6 classes left until I student teach and I just want to be done with University of Phoenix. I feel like I am not a student at the University of Phoenix. I feel like the University of Phoenix does not care if I graduate or not. Of all the classes for this to happen with, Mathematics is my favorite subject, and I was truly looking forward to this class and I have been let down yet again by the University of Phoenix.So now I must answer those of you who say, they are a corporation, of course they do not care. I would agree with you, if they did not boast and pride themselves on the "wonderful student experience..." It goes beyond just a corporation, they control the lives of so many countless individuals.
I am an educator at heart... I truly believe that to be an educator you have to be passionate about learning and about the institution of learning. Educators, and especially the institutions they represent, have an responsibility to help foster the passion of learning within every student. This includes being open, honest and communicative with the student.
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